Leaving North Carolina and my grandsons

I did okay today, until I was wandering around the Charlotte Airport and kept having flash backs of the emotionally exhausting night when we came through immigration and some of the same corridors, bringing Ethan home from Guatemela. I had to wait over an hour at the gate and kept fighting tears while watching all the babies traveling with their parents and grandparents. Then everytime I fell asleep on the plane I'd see visions of the boys in various daily activities. They were nice dreams until they'd get distorted and disappear and I'd wake up with a start, realizing that I wasn't with them any longer. But now I'm thanking God for the time we had and I'll be dreaming of the next time I will see my babies and their moms and dads. Thank you Jesus.

I was just listening to the song "Broken and Spilled Out" some of the words touched my heart, once again. Just thinking about how much love we have for our children and grandchildren, that it's almost painful...
It's so awesome to know that God's love for me is so intence and so complete and so painful that He sent His precious Son Jesus, who willing laid down His life for me.

Lord, You were God's precious treasure

His love and His own perfect Son

Sent here to show me the love of the Father

Just for love it was done

And though You were perfect and holy

You gave up yourself willingly

You spared no expense for my pardon

You were used up and wasted for me

Broken and spilled out just for love of me

Jesus

God's most precious treasure lavished on me

Broken and spilled out and poured at my feet

In sweet abandon, Lord You were spilled out and used up for me.